RANTS!!!

NB: This is a Ranting entry.. do not read on if you dun wish to...

When I get back to church whenever it may be... please DUN ask me abt my exams.. unless you want to see a very red-eyed me immediately...

Maths paper 2 can't aslvage my paper 1... definitely not.. I made the horrible mistake of panicking when I saw the questions.. and that alone took me 1 hour to calm myself down.. imagine that you have placed all of ur hopes on stats and yet you can't do it.. imagine that yest you did 2 prelim papers on stats and felt confident until you see today's paper.. imagine that you have seen a question.. noe the distribution.. but dunno the n and the p...

Yest was bad too.. I cried after I came home for Chem.. and subsequently slept for 4 hours in the afternn! Darn.. Chem paper 3 was bad too coz I kept blaming myself why I din study as hard for my physical chem.. why on earth did I keep doing papers when in the first place my concepts are not there? Why on earth can I mix up the properties of my oxides and chlorides when I just read them on the bus? Why why why?? felt pretty bad when I saw Ms Tay today and when she asked the 3 of us today and asked how was our papers so far.. ok.. and she was like as long as u did your best.. its ok.. but why?? I feel very bad..

And I made the mistake of crying on tues night too.. I was tired after maths and bio.. my bio was ok just that I din haf enough time to do it.. And I knew that I really din study as thoroughly.. Maths was gone..

I could have put up a brave front and not cry in front of others.. but I can't at home... Crying is a form of me letting it out..

Can I swear?

When I tried sleeping just now.. and yest.. I had bad nightmares.. I noe its stress.. but I just couldn't help it.. I have no idea why the stress is coming now.. but please.. for Heaven's sake.. someone teach me how to stop it!

I'm sick and tired of this...

I'm really sorry Ms Yee.. if you're reading this.. that I'm not gg to do as well.. And I really feel like apologising to Ms Tay too coz I think I've made stupid mistakes on my paper.. and I feel bad to Mr Lim too coz after seeking for his help.. . I still can't do my paper..

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH