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Ok I just needed to get this off my chest.. never mind if you guys dun understand what I mean.. I reckon Tingzi shld know what I'm toking abt.. If I dun blog abt this it probably is gg to get me down..

Many times, I do wish that I'm not too sensitive nor emotional.. Or rather.. let's put it this way.. Many times, I really wish that I dun think too much and can just take things the way they are and not dwell upon it.. I've always haf this emotional baggage around me which I always dun let out unless I really can't take it..

Perhaps its coz I din have many friends around me when I was younger and that's why I cherish friendships as I found them along my pathway.. Why did I ever choose to do that? I dunno.. Well.. I'm a person who's always direct with her words and to a certain extent, I do agree that I can be rather insensitive sometimes.. But I know jolly well that I can't hide my feelings all in.. because it'll just be a repeat of the year 2005 which really was a torturous year in my opinion..

I might not be the person concerned there but I reckon that I must have become too dominant over the years, especially of friendships.. I'm not like others who can put it down as easily as they say it.. No, I'm not.. on the contrary.. I dun really know what is the true meaning of friendships.. It is indeed hard for an extrovert who is much of an introvert at heart to communicate with an introvert, for you never know what is going on within her inner thoughts..

I'm easily hurt just because I think too much.. But that is just me.. I feel so.. lost.. I feel like crying but I can't..

Xian zai.. shi bu shi wo gai shuo wo yao fang shou de shi hou le ne? Xin zhong de mao dun.. wo zhen de mei ban fa liao jie zi ji.. sui ran cen jing you ren gen wo shuo guo, mei ren neng bi ni zi ji geng liao jie zi ji..

Wo lei le.. wei he bu neng rang wo sha ren you sha fu ne? Zhen de ning yuan rang shi jian dao liu suan le...