RanDoM tHouGhTs

For some reason I've been feeling very down.. When I called up Ms Yee and told her that I prob wun be going to church for quite sometime till after the prelims.. She asked me to rely more on God.. I wish I knew how to.. I know that she understands I'm feeling stressed.. but somehow after that short conver with her, my heart really sank into the pits.. I noe that sth's wrong with me deep in the heart of the sub conscious.. but I can't detect it yet so I din tell her what I was feeling that day..

Kai Lin asked me what the bible was abt.. I dunno how to reply her.. din wanna disturb Ms Yee so asked YX instead.. Apparently it made me realise that I am not a diligent Christian afterall even though I am in terms of academic matters.. Am I just running away from matters? Rem that Pastor Yu said sth abt us putting a facade.. I feel that I am now.. Happy on the outside.. but who noes what I really am feeling on the inside when I even dunno abt it myself?

Oh well.. life goes on.. Not gg to church now..