HaPpY cNy!!
Happy new year! =) Though Tingzi is prob in Harbin looking at the lovely ice scupltures now hahahaha..
Well.. Actually I dun mean to be a wet blanket over this festive season for ppl reading this, but you can choose not to read it if you dun want to coz its not gg to be a very nice entry or whatever you call it.. Its just for my ranting purposes...
Wonder why things always seem to happen at the wrong time.. Somewhere in Taiwan, my relatives are not having a happy new year.. though we're not exactly related by blood, but from what my mother says, I really feel we should go and visit him.. Its not about relationships and all, but its about repaying of gratitude if you put it? I do remember once that Ms Yee has asked me to control my emotions but really, as you continue to become sensible as you grow up, its getting harder and harder to do so. Harder to unload and give up what you should. Harder so to forget your worries..
Looking back, I haven't been praying to God for quite some time (Not to mention reading the bible =X) because either I'm really tired or I just can't find the time. I just find it hard to totally give it all out to Him. Why? I dunno.. Natural reaction?
I never liked going to my father's side to bai nian on the first day of CNY, which is probably why the only thing I look forward to CNY is to buy new clothes and all but definitely not the bai nian trips.. For one, I really can't stand the way my mum and my dou dou is being treated there.. For two, I still can't forgive. And you're talking about issues which date back to even when I was like still in kindergarten? If its love and concern you're talking about here, no way.. I go only for the sake of my mum. Though this year I did manage to make some small talk, and did see through my Xiao Gu and grandfather's kindness showered upon dou dou (which reminds me that they're nice and kind.) But they're the only ones in teh family who treated mum and dou dou with respect. You may say I'm biased and all for all I care, but if you were me, and I'm sure Tingzi understands why I'm saying this.
Good side is I always manage to see my father's other side to us and how he actually treats us, but I still can't stand the way he treats my mum. So probably in a way, its just.. well I dunno.. Out of filial piety that I can't forgive. Or out of love.
Whatever.
Casting that aside, I've managed to set on an agreement with the mum of the student that Ms Yee recommended. Looks like I will not be finding another job anymore since I'll probably become a full time tutor cum waiting for the schs to call me up for relief teaching.. But I'll have to assess him before I take it on. Woah.. scary.. I never liked talking to parents..
Oh wells..
Happy CNY anyway if you've reached the end of this entry =)
Well.. Actually I dun mean to be a wet blanket over this festive season for ppl reading this, but you can choose not to read it if you dun want to coz its not gg to be a very nice entry or whatever you call it.. Its just for my ranting purposes...
Wonder why things always seem to happen at the wrong time.. Somewhere in Taiwan, my relatives are not having a happy new year.. though we're not exactly related by blood, but from what my mother says, I really feel we should go and visit him.. Its not about relationships and all, but its about repaying of gratitude if you put it? I do remember once that Ms Yee has asked me to control my emotions but really, as you continue to become sensible as you grow up, its getting harder and harder to do so. Harder to unload and give up what you should. Harder so to forget your worries..
Looking back, I haven't been praying to God for quite some time (Not to mention reading the bible =X) because either I'm really tired or I just can't find the time. I just find it hard to totally give it all out to Him. Why? I dunno.. Natural reaction?
I never liked going to my father's side to bai nian on the first day of CNY, which is probably why the only thing I look forward to CNY is to buy new clothes and all but definitely not the bai nian trips.. For one, I really can't stand the way my mum and my dou dou is being treated there.. For two, I still can't forgive. And you're talking about issues which date back to even when I was like still in kindergarten? If its love and concern you're talking about here, no way.. I go only for the sake of my mum. Though this year I did manage to make some small talk, and did see through my Xiao Gu and grandfather's kindness showered upon dou dou (which reminds me that they're nice and kind.) But they're the only ones in teh family who treated mum and dou dou with respect. You may say I'm biased and all for all I care, but if you were me, and I'm sure Tingzi understands why I'm saying this.
Good side is I always manage to see my father's other side to us and how he actually treats us, but I still can't stand the way he treats my mum. So probably in a way, its just.. well I dunno.. Out of filial piety that I can't forgive. Or out of love.
Whatever.
Casting that aside, I've managed to set on an agreement with the mum of the student that Ms Yee recommended. Looks like I will not be finding another job anymore since I'll probably become a full time tutor cum waiting for the schs to call me up for relief teaching.. But I'll have to assess him before I take it on. Woah.. scary.. I never liked talking to parents..
Oh wells..
Happy CNY anyway if you've reached the end of this entry =)
posted by SAm @ 9:14 PM
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