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Hehe.. now this is where I really can blog abt my Daddy God.. hahas.. instead of juz posting up super long entries at my other blog ---> www.kenix-fish-fanatic.blogspot.com juz liek what I did for the church camp.. I'm juz sending others into being puzzled LOL...

Anyways.. had church today.. din get a chance to really tok to anyone since Kai Lin was in a rush of time and haha.. I dun even hafta introduce her.. Pastor juz helped me wif that favour.. thank God for that coz before servie I was still worryign abt how I could juz stand up and tok into the mike haha.. and luckily I told Kai Lin abt the intro part that they do for all newcomers sia.. haha.. She seemed to haf enjoyed the service though.. Well.. at least I hope she did..

Yeah then went up to be prayed for regarding how I haf really built up a wall around myself.. which is especially true since I haf nvr taken teh initiative to tok to others in church and they are the ones whom I need for support.. I know that jzu too well.. My insecurities and all.. As well as how often I find it hard to tok to Ms Yee regarding service and all.. even though she keeps showing concern to me.. I know that all too well and it came as a greater impact when I tried to tok to her on sat but failed to do so..

Have been shouldering alot of stuffs on my own without letting anyone know.. not even her.. not even myself sometimes coz they're juz hidden so deep within.. so as I prayed for myself juz now.. I juz wanted God to guide me in letting go.. coz its a process and not an overnight thing.. And to come into contact wif my old wounds which haf been left uncovered for a long time so that He can heal me..

And most imptly.. I wanna feel my Daddy's love for me =)

And I juz wanna thank Daddy God for letting me meet Kai Lin on fri.. it was juz so much of a God-cident ... as I've learnt from Uncle Duane during the retreat.. And also.. today!! She actually came.. even though what happened after wasn't pleasant.. probably God is using it to strengthen my faith and all.. and how I can reach out to Kai Lin..

And also.. for lettign me attend the camp on Fri and Sat.. it was beneficial even though I was left heavy hearted after the whole session and settled deep in my thoughts w/o letting anyone into my mind.. But I know that God is with me and ppl do luv me.. haha.. such as her.. coz she was always the one who was there for me and when I cried during the camp.. she was juz liek a big jie jie who was there to offer me support.. hahas..

And juz wanna pray for WH who got through Sg IdoL! Haha.. So happy for her..

Thats all for now.. moving on to my next blog entry on the other side of me =)