Depressing entry

You know.. if its one thing that I dread.. Its when those tears of my mum start to flow coz it'll start to get me all choked up too.. thankfully I was on MSN and I was cracking jokes with my classmates..

At times, I do wish that these kind of things dun happen.. at least.. not at this kind of timing! It wasn't unexpected that he had to go so soon because when I went back to M'sia on that day.. he was already.. erm.. half gone though he was still alert.. Rather scary to imagine the fact that it was only two months that made this difference, and two days was all it takes for him to go back to where he originated from..

I wasn't so affected yest.. but I really dread it when mum starts it all over again with her worried look.. She's ageing.. Perhaps it is indeed time for me to be more filial to her.. I just don't understand why these things happen one after another.. year after year.. Though its just part of life.. Btu still.. Ageing and dying.. I wonder how I shld approach this matter..

I will not be gg to M'sia this Sun for the funeral, but I need to take it off my mind by doing sth else.. that livens up my spirits for a minute.. like gg out with my friends.. Will not be gg for service this week.. I need to chill..