ExeRcIsInG nOsE

Oh wells.. if you can infer from the title.. yeah I'm sick yet again.. I guess the "prophercy" of me falling sick after every major exam always come true after all.. haha.. No thanks to the so very nice weather we have in Singapore..

Hmm.. was actually quite settled for a lazy afternn when KL called me and told me abt the job she is gg for.. and she dragged me along too.. and lo and behold.. its exactly the same agency I went to yest! hahaha.. erm.. bo bian lar.. and sth out of the point.. Did I ever mention that I have always wondered how ppl can survived on heelS? OMG.. I juz wore it for half a day and my feet are feeling sore -_-" and I hafta wear it for Grad night too!! *gasps*

Ok.. This is a short entry of coz.. and anyway.. on my way home dropped by SK lib.. and I saw Chabel! Hahaha.. wif her parents of coz.. so stopped awhile and chatted.. everyone's asking me to relax for a while.. haha.. yeah I wish I can too =)

Yeap thats abt all.. More shopping to be done 2mr and testi collection.. I'm gg to miss TJ.. =(

CoinCidEncE? goDLy enCounTeR?

Hehehe.. ok.. i dun really haf the mind to think of titles now.. hehe..

Anyway... had a mahjong session wif Dang yest.. Okies.. I lost alot hahaha.. wah.. by a wide margin sia.. Lady Luck wasn't shining on me yest =) But nvm.. its juz a game anyway.. haha.. Shortly after that went to Bugis for dinner and a lil bit of shopping for more grad night stuff.. and on our way home.. Someone appeared in the middle of nowhere... Ms Yee lar.. hahaha.. I can't exactly tell you how shocked I was coz it was already around 7 plus and normally I dun think church ends that late so she was the last person that I expected to see.. hahaha.. I guess my expression gave Yu Xuan a shock too.. hahahaha...

But oh well.. haha... I suppose it was either too much of a coincidence or probably a God-arranged encounter hahaha.. Seriously I think my heart can't take such shocks anymore after the few traumatising papers I had in the 2nd week of exams muahaha.. LOL.. but anyway.. I was just thinking of the rough schedule I've planned out for myself once I get a job..

Mon-Fri : Work lar of course! Hahaha.. and home tuition

Sat: Home tuition again.. and if this really occurs, ballet classes at YMCA (or street jazz at CC)

Sun: Volunteer services at a childrens' home? this is tentative.. Dun worry.. I'll try to make time for service.. I really want to live my life to the fullest now.. btw, the children's home is a Christian one too.. hahahha...

So most prob either I wun haf time for BS.. or if i do haf time for BS.. I dunno what's the other party's schedule gg to be.. But well.. that's not exactly on my head now.. YX was right.. I dun really feel like reading the bible after exams.. in fact.. I juz feel like slacking all day long!!! BUT.. I do try and read on train journeys hahaha..

I wan a job fast! I dun wanna juz keep teaching! I wanna step out into the real world and open up my eyes!! =) Wouldn't mind sales hahaha..

gOwN shOpPinG 2

Hehe.. ok.. it wasn't exactly a gown.. but I've finally settled for a much cheaper, 2 piece skirt and halter top at City plaza.. yes my mum ad I travelled from Orchard to Paya Lebar just for the sake of it hahaha.. and it's super cheap at 60 dollars only! Muahahaha.. thanks to my mum's friend ;) Pretty tired out from teh shopping too though.. Went to the lib b4 that and realised that I really haf lost touch wif books ever since I've started college life.. Dun even noe what type of books I like now hahaha..

Oh wells.. but I borrowed one on Chi hist (Ting.. stop screaming hehehe) Oh mans.. did I mention Tingzi and I took neoprints everytime we go out tog? LOL.. And this time round we had a common theme called... GOONG!! Hahaha.. we're in midst of our shin-chiness hehehe... But anyway.. quite satisfied wif every neoprint that we take hahahaha...

Not gg to church 2mr. .I reckon Ms Yee really tot my reason was absurd hahaha.. mahjong session and accessories shopping LOL.. But anyway.. I'm gg to be super free this dec I suppose.. I dun think anyone's gg to hire someone who only wants to start work for a few days and take leave on the 6th.. haha.. and only working for at most a month and a half (provided I can find a sch which accepts me) HX and I are gg to look at volunteering at a children's home.. tot that would be fun.. so u prob wun see too much of me I suppose.. But I'm free on weekdays hahaha.. I suppose BS wun start so soon.. but when it starts I'll hafta see how it's gg to fit in le.. coz I really wanna earn money for my mum (who's gg to sponsor me for my dance lessons hehehe)

Ok.. that's all for now.. haf fun at service 2mr YX though i think u wun see this in time..

GowN sHopPinG

Hehehe.. ok.. so I went gown-shopping today at orchard area.. pretty satisfied wif the 1st gown like dress that I saw.. hehehe.. shall be gg wif my mum to get it 2mr.. haha.. and saw a handbag at OG which goes wif it too.. what a pity it has to be white hahaha.. then it can go wif my dress which is most prob gg to be black! LOL..

Anyways.. I've finished exams yest! And been slacking around at home since there's nth to do.. and I'm watching e zuo ju zhi wen still.. shld be renting summore stuffs to watch.. Hoping to find a job soon.. so that at least I'll be kept busy.. any recommendations? hahaha.. Suddenly recalled that Ms Yee mentioned sth abt her after As stuff.. LOL.. Nah I doubt I'll do that.. I should be looking for a job haha.. And I wanna save up to go overseas.. but before that... to recoup my losses for grad night and stuffs hahaha..

I will only be back in church on 3rd Dec.. hehehe.. and I shall try not to eat too much then so that I can really look my best on 6th dec! hehehe...

INduLGeNcE ! =)

Hehehe.. 2mr's my last paper! woots! Actually.. I really dun feel like studying.. yeap yeap.. haha.. I've received a call from teachafteralevels agency and haha.. I'm down for an interview.. but the BIG BIG prob is.. I dunno how to write my resume and OMG.. I've gotta prepare a trial lesson, 2 chapters worth of notes as well as tok abt my teaching method? Doesn't sound too good to me.. but oh well.. I suppose everything comes wif a price hehehe.. I still can't imagine myself teaching chem though haha.. Anyone can aid me in my resume and lessons? LOL...

Did like 400 MCQs again juz now.. and including yest.. its at least 1000 haha.. and alot of repeats!! Hehehe.. sounds cool.. I shall keep doing till I get all the ans at the back of my head..

Yest was pretty slack.. everyone doesn't haf the mood to study I guess.. coz there were actually 8 ppl online and of this.. at least 3 were taking bio LOL.. and while I was indulging in you-tube's lovely ballet videos, Eunice was trying to psycho me to watch video after video of her idol and wushu.. haha.. ok lar.. I am a lil interested in it, I muz admit hahaha =)

And when boredom comes.. I'm looking at the diff curriculum offered by the diff faculties of uni.. Kill me pls someone..

Grad night's coming and alto of stuff aren't finalised yet.. but I guess that's not exactly the impt part yeah? hahahaha...

Sun's a mahjong session wif Dang.. sorry YX, I really can't gif this a miss after what has happened during the starting period of As.. hahaha.. I've realised that I really can't do w/o friends.. and perhaps that's why I always try to keep my weekends free for a poss dance course wif Puppy!! Hehehehehe... what a pity its on Sun =( Perhaps that is why I dun exactly like gg to church esp when I'll be sitting alone coz I noe I'm not that anti-soc as I am k.. Juz take a look at my after-exams life and you will know! Hahaha.. K-box sessions too =) LOL.. I suppose its prob coz I always dun go that I dun exactly foster strong bonds wif church peeps but oh well.. I' already glad enough wif my current stage.. At least I do make longer conversations now hahaha..

And 2mr's a trip to vivocity to celebrate suzanne's (xiu zhen) birthday! hahahhaa.. oh my.. why do I sound so hyped up now when exams are not even over hahahha..

Ok.. some serious matters... (well.. not exactly..) I do realise day by day that I do have a light coming from w/n me.. hahaha.. I'm always trying to be there for others.. whenever they need it.. and when my dear evonne jie blogged abt me.. ok.. I suppose this might sound a lil zi kua if you put it that way but yeah.. Perhaps after years of slogging my guts out for exams esp for the O levels and Promos that I've sort of attained "enlightenment" and that I've kan kai-ed alot of stuff and am able to put myself in others' shoes to provide them wif some not exactly sound advice and a listening ear =)

Haha.. perhaps I shld save this for my end-of-year entry in dec.. Half of this post will be up in my other blog anyways =)

ChEm aNd bIo aFteRmaTh

You notice that i din include maths in the heading coz I still feel that I've screwed up both my papers.. especially at the either or question which carries the most weightage.. Chem.. kind of fed up with the cambridge examiners.. and of coz myself too.. imagine completeing the TYS quetsions for organic chem.. seeing it REPEATED in your MCQ paper.. and forgetting the ans.. how it rocks man.. -_-" Kind of shocked by the paper...

And I guess its solely coz of stress that my biological clock is upside down again.. I've been sleeping late and waking up early.. resulting in a wee bit of insomnia at night.. -_-" Why my body so bu zheng qi? Muz be coz of too much studying and expectations of bio I guess.. I've never studied a subject so thoroughly b4!! And best part is.. its not even 1/2 the subject.. oh wow..

Anyway.. plans after As.. just posting here for fun since YX only reads this blog hahaha..

1) Learn ballet and piano.. I've been dying to do that for like ages..

2) Get a job (even though I've got a tuition offer already) haha.. and I've applied for relief teaching too.. need a mth for it to be officially approved.. but anyway.. its the sch hols so dun exactly reckon they need alot of A level graudates' help hahaha...

3) CG chalet.. WRB's trip to vivocity.. shopping for grad night stuff cum outing wif Tingzi, Ali and co, as well as a probable vivocity outing wif my MJ frens! Hahaha.. And of course.. I'm counting on dang or whoever to start organising a mahjong session hehe.. I wanna play wif Yi Shan too!

4) Lock myself up at home and start a HK cum Korean cum TW dramas.. hehehehe...

5) Grad night and partying till dawn!! Hehehe.. can't wait for that..

6) Pray hard everyday for the results hahahaha... nah.. from the looks of it.. If I'm lucky I'll get Bs for maths and chem.. if not.. erm...

7) Perhaps.. go back to church more oft? Though I seriously doubt my schedule might allow that hahaha.. nah.. I'll leave that to the future.. afterall.. we should always let tomolo worry for itself, isn't it? =)

Well.. I think there might be summore things to add on.. hehehe.. Last one is that I'm starting to miss TJ and the wearing of uniform.. looks like its gg to be time for shopping of clothes...

Ok the last point was random.. I've gotta finish up my sexual repro notes now.. tata~~ If only its an afternn paper!!!

random tired post

Been feeling worn out these days even though I'm nearing the end of exams.. but mum juz made a very nice comment :"Seems that this time round you're having an easier time with exams"

Erm.. ya I agree I wasn't as tense up nor hardworking than my O level days.. but erm.. I do put in effort just that I dun dare to give myself stress.. or rather.. even if I gif myself stress.. I dun show it out coz I keep my door shut.. for my own private lil space.. to cry and juz erm.. vent it out via phone calls..

Oh wells.. I dun care abt that anymore.. its gg to be over soon and I'm gg to haf loads of fun after that! hehehe.. and I shall go and get my sleep now.. I'm vvvvvv tired after doing 400+ nearing 500 MCQs today and a few bio questions.. the Bio questions were enough to spoil my whole day.. I guess I still prefer doing chem.. Shall really miss it after gg uni.. hope that there's a chem minor or sth hahaha..

kk.. gg off..

PaPeRs.. paPerS..

I'm still quite in shock wif today's chem paper 2.. it was much much more easeir than expected.. to the extent that I finished it w/n 45 mins.. instead of the usual 1.5 horus that we hafta struggle wif at sch exams!! OMG.. I'm in awe lar.. haha.. but it also worries me that if everyone found this easy.. moderation will play a big part btw the A and the B graders.. And best part was.. they kept comign out grp 7 stuff and grp 2 till now haven't come out!! *wide-eyed* Thermochem too.. Ionic equi.. haha.. ok..

Well.. din exactly study today.. I guess I was too tired out.. btw.. I might not be gg abck for service so soon afterall.. coz my schedule's packed wif post A-level stuff.. time for me to take a big breather.. 19th: can't go coz of bio option paper the next day.. 26th: most prob shopping for grad night stuff wif other peeps.. I need my sleep! haha.. 3rd dec: a probable.. ok lar.. more or less confirmed class chalet!! Weee.. can't wait ;) 10th dec: after grad night.. erm.. walkathon of church? hehe.. gotta see how much energy I haf left over.. =)

So.. looks like its gg to be a long break till I update here...

ExaMs FeVeRRrrr...

[EDIT] Hmm.. mayb I shld stop doing the stupid TYS papers to stop myself from thinking abt the mistakes I've made in the stupid chem paper 3!! Rahhh.. I'm feeling so bad coz of it.. Praying hard that I can get ABB.. I wan that treat from Ivan Lim.. haha.. nah.. it shld be me treating him instead... Pinning all of my hopes on paper 2 and bio now.. rahhhhh.... And I got demoralised from the endless option questions that I'm doing.. haha.. Kind of an accomplishment though just that I hate the marking process..

Umz.. So I had a hard time trying to shake my dear xiao xiao dou dou off.. haha.. she has been bugging me from the minute she got home.. LOL.. its a joy to play with this new addition in the family.. But it can be quite hard to stop her from interrupting my study routine too.. haha.. Jkjk.. wouldn't mind more kids in the house after the exams though hahaha..

Anyways.. An update on the A levels.. The "hiong" week is finally over! Yes.. and I've missed 4 epi of goong juz coz of it!! *sniffs* =( Nvm.. I shall buy the DVD.. I will.. den can bring to class chalet to watch! hehehe.. along with my e zuo ju zhi wen and also HK dramas! Oh no.. I sense that I'll become a potato couch.. at least.. for end of this mth and next mth! hehehehe...

Yeah.. erm.. Maths paper 1.. I rem coming home heavy hearted coz when I was hitching a ride in Ling's car it seems that my ans and Ling and Xuanzi's one are diff.. But well.. even if I'm wrong.. there'll be method marks right? *cross fingers* and I actually got my P and C question correct! I think that was a great bonus to me.. And at tuition.. I realised that actually I wasn't that bad off.. hehehehe.. I'm praying hard for a B.. I hope..

Chem paper 3 was quite tough.. everyone was thrown off track by the 1st question.. I hope paper 2 and MCQ wun be that tough.. comparing this with the other papers I did it was manageable.. but lack of time.. I cross my fingers that I can secure my A using paper 2 and 1.. For maths... Erm.. easier than prelim.. harder than usual A level papers.. dun rem getting stuck.. BUT.. they purposely set 1st questions to scare ppl one izzit? -_-" At least.. that's the trend I've noticed so far..

Not the case for BIo though.. I tot the only question which was hard was the diagram one.. wah can't even identify the structures =( 6 marks gone.. and they gave so little lines that I wrote all over the place! OMG.. I hoope the Cambridge examiners wun mind.. =X And what is there to write for the Carbon cycle that is worth 8 marks?? OMG.. my 8 marks essay was like.. 1/2 the length of my 6 marks essay!! It was like only covered in brief even in the lecture notes! Oh well..

So.. left with 2 bio and 2 chem.. Pressing on.. I can't wait to go k- box with my frens after the As.. and also my HK or wherever trip and my genting trip wif Mum!! I shall fulfil the slogan of Singaporeans.. "Shop till you drop!" Hehehe...

But till then.. jiayou YX for ur prsentations! =)

REtuRn To SeRviCe

Muahaha.. after how many weeks of break.. yeah i finally went back today.. Couldn't comprehend what speaker was preaching again as usual.. haven't gotten to the Old Testament yet lar.. hehehe.. But.. yeah considering the lovely marathon for maths and bio I had today.. I can't really blame myself.. hehe.. it was bad to the extent that I din even haf lunch.. haha.. thank God my gastric din act up like yest..

Oh wells.. then shortly after that.. haha.. I feel so loved.. suddenly everyone starts asking me abt my As.. hehehe.. ok..that was meant as a joke =P Nah.. it was out of concern.. but thanks ppl =) Even though I (and of course, many others) feel like "strangling" the person who set the horrible GP paper and I'm sure the LEP peeps wanna petition against the bad paper that they had.. hehehe.. I noe that the subsequent papers wun be too easy.. But I'll just go for it and like what everyone has been telling me, "Trust in God" =) I will cont to pray..

After that.. I went through the slight agony of reiterating what happeend on thurs to Ms Yee.. ok lar.. seems so insignificant now.. but.. it was quite bad on thurs =X But at least, speaking it out was the right thing to do coz I def dun wan history to repeat itself again... and haha.. Chabel's so adorable! Haha.. a pity I dun go church oft to get to know this sweetie-pie ;) Of course.. the advice was helpful lar.. it is indeed part of growing up in that process.. And I suppose through this I have learnt that really much as life is unfair, it makes exams seem insignificant.. and how ironic must this be for me to learn the lesson..

But yeah.. this chat session was indeed helpful.. it helped me discover the other side of me =) So.. as the exams cont.. and I mug my head off.. good luck peeps.. I WILL BE BACK in abt 3 weeks time.. and OMG.. the new church building looks cool! =) hehehe..

Oh wells.. I suppose I am indeed growing wif God.. in God's presence.. by praying continuously everyday.. and I've never done that b4 even though i did attend other churches b4! Hahaha.. thank God for that ;) Yes.. and for the strength to hold on till now, for the numerous chances He has given me, even for my promotion to year 2! =)

Alright.. 11.30.. gotta sleep now so that I can cont wif my kidneys and nerv control later hehehe.. And goodness.. I haven't studied inorganic chem!! God.. pull me through this! haha.. And of coz.. I shall still pray for Dang's recovery =) Tata~

trip to the hospital

Erms.. I just realised that alot of ppl of my batch got admitted to hosp.. haha.. which doesn't sound too good.

Was studying halfway when I saw Tingzi's sms.. erm.. luckily her fren is ok now.. which reminds me.. ting.. please haf ur meals regularly.. Wun wanna see you hafing gastric during exams pls *choy*

Well.. so I din exactly do much today either.. had to force myself to eat sth coz I myself was hafing gastric (like in the middle of the afternn?? -_-") Then went to SGH.. Dang was sleeping.. so I just placed the card at her bed side.. and off I went.. apparently.. she got to know it 45 mins later when her mum told her.. haha.. glad to hear that she's feeling better now.. but I really really really hope its nth wrong.. and that its just sth temporary.. Please God, hear my prayer..

Ok. .I'm off to study.. bbuai.. I will be gg for service 2mr.. Time to thrash things out..

sLOw..pRogResS =(

Erm.. after one whole day of mugging.. I've only managed to complete:

1) Mutation and Evo
2) Homeostasis and Endocrine (in conjunction wif yest)
3) Ecology questions from 04 prelim (core), HOmeostasis + enzymes TYS questions
4) Tut questions for organic till carbonyl + 2002 deductive questions
5) 2 questions of complex no from TYS (which seriously demoralised me and took me like 1 hour you noe.. TYS! Next thurs had better be over fast -_-")

At this rate.. I doubt I'm that prepared for the battle next week..

But pt aside, thanks YX for listening to me rant over the phone last night.. sorry if I did scare you wif my sudden reactions.. Erm ya.. so coz of that I din really do much yest..

And thou shalt go back to sleep now so that I can wake up 2mr for a LONG battle ahead.. plus a poss hospital visit..

Oh did I mention that there's a new addition to my family! HAha.. no she's not a baby.. she's just a 6 year old China kid by the name of Jenny whom my mum is the guardian of as long as she studies in Sg.. haha.. and she calls me "da dou dou"!!! -_-" And in return I called her xiao xiao dou dou.. haha.. oh man.. this is gg to be so fun.. I had so much "fun" trying to get her out of the bed this morn LOL.. But yeah.. I love kids ;)

A sincere prayer

I noe I'm not supposed to blog.. but let's just take it that it's a channel for me to voice out my thoughts.. And no this is not abt the horrible GP paper I had today..

Received the news after GP paper.. Dang din wan to affect us apparently so she only got Angel to tell me after the GP papers.. What shld I say? I'm surprised? shockeD? I dunno.. but at that time.. it really was bai3 gan3 jiao1 ji2.. reminded me of last time what happened during O levels.. I went straight too SGH to visit her.. seeing her there with all the bruises on her arms becasue of the blood tests really pains me.. and while we were left alone by the rest of my frens.. she told me her worries and concerns.. its not like her to do that.. in fact, she has never ever done that! But when she did it.. I can really feel her cry from within.. I couldn't really comfort her.. but just to tell her not to worry so much and that to joke wif her that at least she's not a guy who has to waste another 2 years..

Of course, for ppl who oft read my other blog.. they'll just say that hey.. this is a good chance for you to rekindle your friendship.. true.. but I felt more of sadness juz now when I saw her.. was trying all means to chat wif her.. really.. to keep her away from thinking.. and just told her to do her best since she made this decision..

I shall not mention the name here but Tingzi shld noe.. and if Ms Yee sees this (which I dun think she will) yes, its that same person whom I'm so close to..

For this, I would just like to type out this little prayer to God.. I hope He sees or hear it:

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Dear Heavenly Father,

Father Lord, you know that we are having our A levels now Father.. You know the anxieties that we all are having.. but father Lord, I just want You to please bring away the suffering from her Father.. Father Lord You know that she definitely has the academical ability to do it Father, so Father please.. I beg of You.. I pray that she will be discharged this weekend Father, so that she can fully concentrate and revise for her Maths paper Father, without worrying.

Father Lord, You know that she is worried Father, and Father I'm sure that You know we are all worrying for her too. So Heavenly Father, please.. take away her suffering at this point of time and not let her go through the agony that she went through again 2 years back. Father Lord, I just want to pray that Your grace will bring her through the exams Father, so that it will be smooth-sailing and that she does not have to worry too much nor over exert herself.

Father Lord I also want to pray that You will just bless her with better health Father, so that she can move on in life.

Father Lord, I also want to pray for her parents Father. Father Lord I just want to pray that You will just bless them and give them all the strength that they need, be it financially, or mentally, or physically Father.. Father Lord I really beg of You to hear my prayer.. For Father Lord, You have always reminded me of the verse "Seek, and you shall find. Ask, and you will receive. Knock and the door shall be opened to you", so Father Lord.. I really pray for her.

I thank you Father. In Jesus' name I pray, Amen.

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God bless.