REsuLtS

Umz.. so I got back part of my results today.. quite happy for Chem but wasn't sure of what reaction I shld have since some of my friends din do too well and anyway.. I was kind of demoralised by teh Bio results.. Imagine how careless I was .. (wrote "inner cell" instead of "inner cell mass") Nearly awnted to bang my head into the wall! Point is I'm not too sure of what to expect too coz this isn't the major part of the whole bio paper..

So far: Bio --- [EDIT 3] 36.5/100 core paper, 21/40 MCQ
Chem paper 3 + 1 ---- 81/140 [EDIT 2] overall mark: 54.5/100 (hope its a D)

Pretty good for a start.. but I'm more worried abt maths and bio paper 2.. dun dare to place too much hopes on them.. but at least.. I've secured my A level pass! hahaha.. Umz.. its not too bad considering that I cried after Chem paper 3.. think Ms Tay was quite happy for me too.. hehe.. Looks like the prelim papers did help alot..

I shall edit this post later on wif the rest of the results...

[EDIT] Maths paper 1 : 43, Maths paper 2 : 33

Well.. I din exactly do too well for my maths.. to the extent that I have to sit for the re-test right after the graduation ceremony *rolls eyes* (graduate le still need to sit for test.. what an irony!!) But sigh.. As expected I din do well for my paper 2.. but when I said din do well.. I din mean that my paper 1 could actually score better than paper 2!! OMG.. and to think that I was placing higher hopes on my paper 2.. and there is a huge diff btw my marks.. 43 VS 33.. Imagine the high hopes u held when u got 43 for paper 1 and how it was dashed immediately when you got back the 2nd paper.. -_-"

Well.. I wonder if this acts as a comfort not but Ting has been telling me that I've done quite alright considering that I din exactly study alot (nor thoroughly) for maths nor did I do alot of papers (erm.. actually.. it was kind of a last minute thing that I did SA paper 1 and VJ paper 2) And I have been comfortign myself hat though I scored 44 for JCT.. I've never been able to break the 3 mark since last year.. so I should be thankful that I have fallen back into my comfort region again.. Oh well.. Its all over anyway..

I wonder what I'm gg to tell Mr Tay this week.. when a certain someone did so well for maths.. *bish* Tingzi.. you better watch out wor before I start doing sth silly on sat to you hahaha..

Further updates 2mr.. shld be able to get back my full paper for chem.. bio shld be on fri.. hopefully I can score an E for Bio? *cross fingers* I dun wanna stay in the O region for Bio like forever? I haven't been able to score an A level pass so far.. ok alr.. But I really think that this time round my way of answering questions erm.. got improve abit lar? hehe..

[EDIT] I think Ms Tay really rocks.. hahaha.. her way of commenting is too funny to be true.. because I've jumped 11 marks from JCT, she actually mentioned this "Good.. so hope you can maintain it in an AP/GP way" Haha -_-"And I replied that its only for Chem.. the rest all -ve AP/GP hehe...

[EDIT 3] So.. I din exactly do well for my bio paper afterall.. Nearly cried in class when I saw my 1st section but bo bian lar.. no time.. can't exactly cry too since there are others who din do too well either.. so.. *shrugs* MCQ -_-" utter disappointment.. shall look at it again.. Hope I can pull through with a DEO?DOO? SIghs.. wherever did my 3 A level passes go too? Seems that I'm always destined to just scrape through and never achieve my goals.. Oh well.. if a 40 is a E for Bio.. not too bad then.. otherwise it'll seem like I nvr break out of the "O" for Bio..

[EDIT 3] Ok.. I'm pretty tired.. so din go for prayer meeting juz now.. can't believe that I actually could doze off so soon w/n 5 mins.. been tired out I guess..

[EDIT 3] 5 weeks.. to the big As.. whether I like it or not.. I have to keep reminding myself that I can do it and that A levels are not as tough as prelims.. I just hope I have enough time to cover everything from top to toe again...

RetUrN tO sErviCe

Heyyyy... I finally went back to church after like 4 weeks? of mugging? and much as I hate to admit it.. I haven't really been giving myself a break coz it really seemed weird suddenly not to mug at night.. well well well.. tingzi ar.. ms yee asked us not to mug so early wor! Muahaha.. came from a teacher summore hahaha.. so if our results not good right.. we know who to blame and look for as our agony aunt muahaha...

And while we are still "slacking" a little today.. someone is busy marking.. la lee la lee la.. The TYR shirt rocks lehx.. hahaha..

Ok enough of my lemons.. haha.. Well.. becasue of my rare appearance in church today.. earned lots of comments that went on and on abt how great it was to see me again.. haha.. and I literally got dragged by Ms Yee to go Kopitiam even though I din want anything there.. (I wanted my tako pachi.. haha.. tingzi you noe why lar right? =P) Realised that because my attendance in church was so low.. haha.. not many ppl rem me anymore.. haha.. well its ok.. I prefer to keep a low profile.. And I'm the 1st and the last one to end my A levels.. great...

Couldn't really understand the speaker today.. I think he wasn't exactly preaching.. more like sharing his own experience.. or perhaps I'm juz not too used to teh idea of having worship and praise w/o lyrics at the end of sermon.. haha.. Or rather.. I'm too "young" to experience that esp since exams are round the corner (yet again when I've just finished one) Thank you Jasmine for praying for me.. and really I din felt like standing up juz now.. the instant I did.. my face went red... -_-"

No doubt I had fun after service today... not only by chatting and playing around wif my beloved hp.. haha... Someone actually asked if I were a teacher!! Oh man.. I wonder if I look old or young at all.. haha.. coz Mr See's sis once asked if I was an IP1 student! haha.. must be coz of teh stress lar.. haha.. Li Cheng said I'm fairer... haha.. I wished I could change that word to thinner.. haha.. I'm def making a trip to the gym soon..

I always liked to go service coz of the fellowship sessions after that.. And I do admire ppl who have fun in service.. Saw Mervyn.. and he's pretty strong.. in fact.. he was so jovial that no one could guess what had happened to him! I suppose that took alot of courage.. Din really chatted alot as I would.. but point is.. it does take away my troubles for a minute.. if not.. 1+ hours.. Have always been reminded on how I shld always pour out my troubles to God but sometimes I guess I just can't do it.. there's still alot of things that I dunno abt Him.. much less to say abt my religion =X Haha..

Oh! And I liked it when no one can outspeak me in CHinese.. muahaha.. That Mervyn and Ms Yee.. in cahoots! Rahh!! What a nice *rolls eyes* way to treat a person who hasn't been coming to service for quite sometime.. Hehe.. thank goodness my chinese is stronger than theirs! Haha.. even though its not that pow-der-ful in class hahaha... I miss Chinese =( But not the memory and the "shi" part hahaha... I tot I was a lil noisy there though hahaha.. Let others gua1 mu4 xiang1 kan4 abt me oso not that bad.. haha..

Din really get to tok to YX though coz she has to rush off for a project meeting.. oh wells.. next time then I suppose.. haha.. I wonder when that will be...

Well.. whatever the case.. I'm still gg to keep up my date wif ling and tingzi.. afterall I do suffer from STM hahaha.. so I dun put too much things at heart.. for teh time being! Hahaha... for once ms yee was right in saying that I am not those memory type of person.. well.. i tot that was pretty obvious.. hahaha..

Ok.. I'm done crapping.. prob wun be seeing me around in church so oft now coz my mum's complaining.. oh well..

bOoks!

Okie! I've put up a tagboard so that non blogspot users can tag.. haha.. as if a lot of ppl reading this lidat hahaha..

Anyway.. update abt yest.. went to kinokuniya wif Pekkie and gang after Bio (yay!! Last paper hahaha) was reading books books and more books! haha.. and I was reading on books abt God.. haha.. ok.. maybe to understand more abt what is gg on.. While HX and Tingzi were looking at horoscope books.. which brings me to think.. ms yee once said that we shldn't trust horoscope books.. much less to even touch it.. question: What if I read it and dun believe? Or rather... what if I read it and I dun rem it? Umz.. *ponders* And I realised that there are alot of things I still dun understand.. much less to say my religion.. (or am I even ready to be called a Christian) Umz.. I guess I can only find out after the As..

And my mum actually complained that I'm gg to church alot despite not gg for 4 or 5 weeks.. cool.. haha.. well... At times I really am in a dilemma whether to play the filial child or what.. Esp when mum is ranting.. (which is like.. literally all the time) I find it hard to suppress the "hatred" (that's too strong a word to be used... but I can't find any other words to substitute it) for my dad.. but I guess that's what most ppl my age go through? I really wonder if this is a task sent by God for me to accomplish.. Haha..

Whatever the case.. I think I'm gg to church 2mr.. (if I can wake up on time.. considering how tired I've been these days) haha..

I still can't imagine why ppl say that blogging is a form of self-indulgence.. hello.. if there is no such channel for ppl to rant.. and to scream and to complain in.. the world's gg to be full of depressed ppl.. it may be a form of running away from reality.. but I'm sure it beats having no where and no one to turn to in times of distress..

Bleahx.. I'm crapping..

LiFe?

One more paper to the end of prelims.. But anyways..

Just received an SMS abt Mervyn's dad.. Ok although I really dun have the impression of who he is.. I guess the thing that I can give him now is my condolences.. I dun think my mum will allow me to attend the wake.. and I dun want to bring back the past to myself.. Evonne has also lost her aunt.. I really dunno how to comfort them.. Sigh.. There will always be times when I thought of how insignificant I can be.. and how I really feel I want to do more to help others..

Oh well.. Dun worry.. I'm not gg to let that affect my last paper.. which actually doesn't take up much weightage but its still a paper.. Chem MCQ was ok.. think I've really trained myself to be the ultimate haha.. As in time management.. I actually had 10 mins left while others were still struggling.. good or bad? I guess I wun noe till I get my results back.. which isn't exactly sth I'm looking forward too..

But it brings me to think.. Is life really all abt paper qualifications? 生老病死。。人生中必须经历，但它总会在你不察觉到的时候。。而来临。。是不是因为人都太自我，而忘了其实，人生中的目标，真的只是占了一小部分而已？

往往，失去了，才知道后悔与珍惜是什么。。

Just blogging abt my thoughts here =) Shall not depress those who have finished their exams haha..

Read Ms Gn's blog.. Umz.. realised that what she said was indeed true... haha..

6 wEekS

Its a horrifying 6 more weeks to the big As.. And I'm still slacking away.. muahaha... yeap.. coz I think I need it before I plunge into official full-scale mugging again.. At least.. let me rest this week! though I still have MCQ papers... and I am successfully demoralising myself wif Bio muahaha.. not like that's an unusual sight coz no matter how many times I really read those notes (which are taking up 2 big files btw) the information just doesn't want to stay in my puny-sized brain.. I'm really suffering from STM (short term memory) And ironic thing is.. I started out hating Chem and loving Bio.. but now its the other way round.. UMz...

That aside.. I've finally picked up my bible to read like after more than 3 weeks? Penned down lots of thoughts which I suppose will only be revealed when I have BS.. coz by 2mr after a night's sleep I would prob have forgotten what I've written haha.. If its 6 weeks down to the As.. I really wonder how many more weeks of church I will miss.. 6 weeks before As plus another 4 weeks of exams plus a week of hols (not cfm-ed) and 1 week of grad night stuff! hahaha..

Perhaps I still let my studies take over as my priority now..

Anyway.. prayer agenda:

1) Sis's taking her N levels in 2 weeks time (argh.. why does she hafta remind me that mine is 1 mth later?) So.. hope she'll do well for it! Praying hard that she can advance to O levels and hopefully to take her beloved Biotech in poly.. haha.. Dun encourage her to come JC ;)

2) Pray that I can just stop procastinating.. and stop placing stress on myself? (cross fingers)

3) Bro's posted to Armour unit.. hope he can get used to life there haha.. and stop being late! =P

4) That perhaps someday I can really devote myself to even attending church? Ok.. more of strengthening my faith... (like forever..)

5) That everyone who's sick (yes.. including me.. no thanks to the weather) to get well soon

6) That everyone can jiayou and have a smooth running A/O/N levels!!

That's all I suppose.. I hope the situation gets better after a levels.. I can't wait for the life after that!! =)

Umz.. these days the hymns that I sang in pri sch keep coming into my mind.. haha.. ok that was a random thought =P

AftErmaTh

Happy bday Kai Lin! Who doesn't happen to read my blog.. hope she mangaes to do well in her prelims.. we will owe each other a meal if we ever ace our A levels.. so in other words.. if I do ace my A levels.. I think I'll go broke muahaha...

Happy belated bday Cindy and Ducky! =)

Anyways.. Eileen's gg off to China 2mr.. I wun be at the airport (not when its 7 am in the morning!! I need my sleep.. to recover from the dummy cold that I have.. no thanks to the weather) But on the other hand.. I think it really will be quite awkward for me to be there too since I dun exactly noe her that well.. Or rather.. I dun exactly noe my church people well!! Haha.. erm.. I think it'll take eternity for me to rem the names and not that I'm too close to any of them either...perhaps wif the exception of YX who has been helping me wif my maths.. I dun think I haf ever made a conver wif anyone for more than 5 mins.. hahaha...

But well.. all the best to her =) Oh... China's a nice place to be in hahahas.. I hope I can get my double deg to so that I can be there for 2 years to study TCM.. haha.. as if I haf the chance when there's so many ppl fighting for it.. LOL...

Yay.. 2 more MCQ papers to go.. I juz hope I wun become Rudolph when I'm gg back to church.. hopefully this weekend.. Or not I'll prob be continuing my mugging expertise as a student since I'm given 3 days break.. haha.. And I dun exactly feel like breaking the momentum.. Though I think this weekend I'll most prob be slacking away.. wif Tingzi coming over to my hse on Fri.. to JAM.. who wouldn't? haha..

I guess after this week even if I do go to church I might go MIA for a period of time.. till dec? I dunno.. depends on what my post-prelim timetable will be like.. but even so.. I wish to conc on my As.. coz I dun exactly feel prepared for it yet.. judging from teh way I handled my first week of prelim exams..

That leaves to be said though.. and I think after the As I still haf to look for a part time job (teaching?) and put aside time for BS? haha.. I dunno.. thinkign a lil far ahead but yeap.. its juz for fun.. since I'm nearing the end of prelims.. And speakign of that.. today's chem was alright juz that the room was super cold and I happened to be sitted right under the air-con -_-" haha.. oh well... Hopefully I can go church soon ;)

oNe wEeK

Phew... finally the week is over.. time really flies.. And no thanks to the weather.. I'm falling sick?? Shoots.. So I guess one of the prayer agenda for next week will be that I wun fall too sick..

Today's paper.. umz.. not really placing too much hopes on it either coz as usual there wasn't enuff time.. Bio essays.. woah.. and all the GSQF questions.. haha.. ok alr.. considering that myf acts were quite jumbled up for repro in flowering plants.. I dun exactly blame myself for this paper.. plus the weather was so nice for sleeping -_-" =P hehe.. too cold for comfort in the hall though.. muahaha..

Ok.. I'm not gg to church this week.. coz there's a chem paper on mon.. so prayer agenda this week...

1) That I wun fall sick till at least after the exams.. and that my sore throat will go off soon (I hope its only coz of the bad weather)
2) The remaining few days to be fruitful so that at least I can salvage my chem.. and this applies to the rest of my CG mates too.. coz apparently all thought the maths paper was gone.. and that chem was quite tough.. I SHALL NOT comment on bio..
3) That I can just leave it to God to do the rest as I continue with my revision for the As after the prelims (I've got a 3 day break till Weds! Yay!)

Umz.. and I was having this conver wif Jin Yu.. who happens to be teaching in St Hilda's Pri.. haha.. and she noes a certain someone ;) Though she's not a Christian.. she reminded me to be strong in my faith.. or rather.. strengten it.. umz.. maybe its time to question my identity as a Chrisitan and whether I am faithful or not. .*ponders* oh well.. after prelims then say...

Its been a tiring week.. but next week wun be too easy either.. so I shall juz hang on.. I hope..

RANTS!!!

NB: This is a Ranting entry.. do not read on if you dun wish to...

When I get back to church whenever it may be... please DUN ask me abt my exams.. unless you want to see a very red-eyed me immediately...

Maths paper 2 can't aslvage my paper 1... definitely not.. I made the horrible mistake of panicking when I saw the questions.. and that alone took me 1 hour to calm myself down.. imagine that you have placed all of ur hopes on stats and yet you can't do it.. imagine that yest you did 2 prelim papers on stats and felt confident until you see today's paper.. imagine that you have seen a question.. noe the distribution.. but dunno the n and the p...

Yest was bad too.. I cried after I came home for Chem.. and subsequently slept for 4 hours in the afternn! Darn.. Chem paper 3 was bad too coz I kept blaming myself why I din study as hard for my physical chem.. why on earth did I keep doing papers when in the first place my concepts are not there? Why on earth can I mix up the properties of my oxides and chlorides when I just read them on the bus? Why why why?? felt pretty bad when I saw Ms Tay today and when she asked the 3 of us today and asked how was our papers so far.. ok.. and she was like as long as u did your best.. its ok.. but why?? I feel very bad..

And I made the mistake of crying on tues night too.. I was tired after maths and bio.. my bio was ok just that I din haf enough time to do it.. And I knew that I really din study as thoroughly.. Maths was gone..

I could have put up a brave front and not cry in front of others.. but I can't at home... Crying is a form of me letting it out..

Can I swear?

When I tried sleeping just now.. and yest.. I had bad nightmares.. I noe its stress.. but I just couldn't help it.. I have no idea why the stress is coming now.. but please.. for Heaven's sake.. someone teach me how to stop it!

I'm sick and tired of this...

I'm really sorry Ms Yee.. if you're reading this.. that I'm not gg to do as well.. And I really feel like apologising to Ms Tay too coz I think I've made stupid mistakes on my paper.. and I feel bad to Mr Lim too coz after seeking for his help.. . I still can't do my paper..

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

TypInG

This shld be one of my last entries before I enter into prelims and go officially on hiatus from blogging...

Anyway.. I've just finished typing dunno how many essays to Ms Yee and quite a few Maths quetsions to Mr Lim.. That took me a total of 4 hours to type out everything nicely and nearly perfect haha.. goodness and I have not even done what I planned to do.. reason? I had a 3.5 hours nap this afternn.. Dunno why oso.. set alarm le can't hear still nvm.. I actually off-ed it myself subconsciously w/o knowing it.. -_-" As a result.. I think I'll be burnign the oil tonight.. must have been too tired these days even though i do get my 6-7 hours of sleep a day..

Umz.. I told my mum to be prepared that I wun be doing well this coming prelims coz certainly I prepared more for JCT than compared to prelims.. and I'm juz liek fighting a battle w/o carrying the proper equipment (quoted from Tingzi) hehes.. well.. I'm comforting myself by saying that the ultimate thing is the A levels.. so.. like it or not.. still hafta face reality and move on wif the prelims.. So far the only subject which I am more confident in is Chem coz have been doing papers and it was still ok (despite no revision!! hehe)

Maths.. umz.. dunno abt it.. haven't really attempted alot of papers.. Bio.. haha.. din even attempt a singel prelim paper even though I bought so many.. And I've only gone through like 2 chapters? Looks bad but ultimately.. its the As.. prelims is not everything!! Right? (cross fingers)

Ar well.. I know this is not exactly the best that I could have done (not when everyone thinks that you're the studious type that has finished ur revision) obciously not.. I will juz gif it a try and see where I stand.. Hopefully.. hopefully.. I can acheive my aim.. Am gg to aim higher so that I can score better... Yeap!

So.. prayer agenda for the next week:

1) Get over and done with for the prelims..
2) Information be retained in my brain to fully maximise the stuff that I'm learning (applies to everyone too)
3) Just do my best and leave it to God to do the rest

I really thank God that I'm not feeling as stressed now even though I shld since I've not studied finish... Oh wells.. Not gg church 2mr.. the travelling distance seem to be taking its toll on me... last thurs after gg to sch I got so tired out on fri and sat..

Good luck for peeps taking prelims =)

PReLim bLuEs

Ok... I've finally managed to solve the timezone problem on my blog.. yay.. at least that's the only thing that made me happy today..

Note: this is gg to be another ranting entry.. sth which I dun exactly wanna post in my other blog.. I wanna keep that blog in a happy mood so that when others read they wun be affected =)

Reformatted the comp and now I've got maths questions but I can't type it out yet and email it to Mr Lim.. wonder if that's gd or bad.. but anyway, it indeed is alot of questions.. Can't type out my bio essays to email it to ms yee either.. Shoots...

Not gg to church this week.. am simply too tired.. meaning I've cancelled my consultation wif ms yee too.. yea.. i think i really need a break and the last thing I need is to affect my mood on sunday wif Bio.. which happens to be a subejct that I can't finish studying.. and Maths? Hur hur.. I'm relying on doing papers now even though I din revise.. Time shortage.. I din revise chem either but that is not so much of a prob coz I've been frequently doing prelims papers so I think I juz need to revise the concepts.. GP? Gone.. din even look at it.. much less to say do my 1100 words when I can't even finish teh stuff on hand..

Ting mentioned that she was scared.. If she were to be scared of the prelims.. then what would I be? She's the one who always solve all my chem and maths questions! Yes.. I am feeling more paranoid than her now.. can't help it esp when u look at ur own sch's prelim papers and you realise that you can't even do it.. can't even pass it.. And yes.. I admit.. I din touch Bio at all.. with the exception of the essay topics..

Not a good feeling to feel freaked out.. I really wanna do well for the prelims.. And I noe I'm not supposed to be freaking out either.. I noe the ultimate aim is teh A levels but A levels is juz a few weeks away from prelims.. I dun feel prepared at all..

Can someone juz help me take the exams? I'm getting sick and tired of the torture and crying over this matter numerous times..

ARGH!!! ARGH!!! ARGH!!!

Ok.. I feel better after screaming.. SIGH!

FoRGivEnesS?

PS: This is solely gg to be a ranting entry.. Do not go on reading if you do not even understand the 1st part..

Really.. in times like this I seriously wish that I dun have to trouble over trivial matters such as this.. Mum complaining abt Dad.. wishing he was dead.. Ok..

There are periods whereby i would stop and ask myself.. have I really forgiven my dad for all the things he has done? For causing so much grief and anguish w/n my mum? For causing her to say stuff like we shld try and treat her better when she's alive? (the last point really makes me shudder.. I wun wanna go though that type of pain again.. no pls..) I really can't seem to find the answer yet.. in fact I still rem that time after service when I was so willing to forgive my dad.. But yet he did so many things that I really find myself in such a dilemma.. In fact occasionally when mum starts to rant.. I juz half wish that they'll divorce.. yes.. divorce.. but its not liek its gg to be the solution to our problems I suppose.. and the family wun ever be the same again..

I do realise that I am indeed more fortunate than others and that in the bible it said that I should not be envious of others.. but I can't help being envious at them sometimes.. In fact.. its nearly imposs.. I wish I can do sth to improve the situation.. but really.. sometimes I just feel like slamming the door shut.. wishing that I was nvr born.. I do have great parents.. esp my Mum.. who's the only one who can tolerate my temperament..

I really think I still can't bring myself to forget my Dad totally.. if I ever were to list out the things.. it'll fill up alot of pages.. No house phone coz of him refusing to pay the phone bill resulting in all of us trying to struggle wif the pathetic plans of our HPs.. Ok.. that I still can forgive coz he offered his HP for me to call and SMS.. but whenever I need the phone to ask questions.. that's when the prob steps in.. trivial..

The more serious one is that I just can't stand it when he tries to act like some boss and does nth but scream at the kids and scolds them stupid.. idiots.. Occasionally I just feel like telling him.. Kids nowadays can't be handled this way.. he's just gg to ruin the centre and my mum's efforts to get him a job (as a boss.. yeah right..) How do you think the children's parents will react if your child is being scolded that way?

SIGHS...

Anyway.. things to thank God for today is that.. Mr Lim agreed to help me out in my Maths! Yay.. All thanks to that dummy Mrs Tag.. Now i'm studying on my own.. so I'm glad I could turn to Mr Lim when I need it.. hehehe.. But it also means that I've got a super packed up week ahead..

I wish this will all end soon... I'm really sick and tired of this...

Umz.. I was just happening to look through the archives of this blog and I saw the entry on service 2 weeks ago.. which reminded me of Sharon's vision of me again.. ok.. fo God's sake.. I shall get back down to work and not procastinate anymore..

List of things I will be doing:
1) Complete Biochem and 1/2 of organic chem

2) Move on teh questions on normal dist and sampling *cross fingers* this will sure take quite along time coz judging from the past few days.. on average (poisson distribution.. arghs!) I only do abt 11 questions a day... thanks to my speed and the never ending careless mistakes here and there.. grrr...

3) I better start moving on in my Bio.. before I start to flunk it.. the 05 and 04 papers are pretty tough... Shoots..

For now.. I can only pray that I will have sufficient time.. 24 hours is def not enough.. 1 more week to prelims.. and endless more stuff to be reviewed.. how disproportionate.. hopefully by sun I can clear up everything.. and if time allows and I can finish what I am supposed to do after looking for ms yee.. I will go for service.. hopefully..

FEAR = False Evidence Appearing Real.. I shall keep that in mind..

MooD sWinGs

Ok.. so I've been experiencing super great mood swings.. And to that.. I think to get it off my chest.. I shld just say this: Sorry Ms Yee.. for my kind of attitude on Weds.. I really din mean it but it's just that I was really feeling frustrated that I like Bio but yet I'm not doing well enuff for it.. Well.. And fact is I keep forgetting my concepts even though I read my notes for like.. n times? And understanding it n times just that I can't rem it? And I really was suffocated lar. haha.. that's why.. the only channel I could turn to was.. Tingzi! And yes.. I said that I wanted to scream because I really needed to scream... haha... calling her in front of you was really sth that I wun do normally.. so.. really SORRY and paiseh =X Hope you see this..

Ok.. back to things here.. Dun exatly feel like ranting in my other blog so.. here I am.. Yea.. Din pay attention during tuition juz now coz I had a small tiff wif my mum in the morning.. and really.. I just wanted to cry there and then.. (ok.. this always happens when I have a short quarrel or sth) And well.. I did.. for awhile after tuition.. sorry Ting (I know you read this haha) I din mean to make you feel bad.. but at that point of time.. I juz wanted to say: “我真的很想跟你说。。但是就是不知该从何说起” Well.. it is indeed because of the stress there.. So I knew that you'll juz give typical advice that's why I din say out and just said that I was alright.. fact is.. I really was alright.. haha.. After the nice chit-chat and shopping session.. how can I not be right? Haha.. Plus I splurged on the pair of converse sneakers.. it really helped brighten up my day.. haha.. looks like retail therapy works on me..

Not gg to church 2mr.. I need all the time I have now.. since I've wasted like the whole day.. and the whole of yest.. haha.. I hafta complete the whole of organic chem and biochem by 2mr night..

Gg over to the other side of me now =)

HapPy tEacHeRs' dAy =)

Ignore the timing at the end of my post.. for some reason I can't get it adjusted to Sg timing.. but anyway.. its 1st sept now at 00:34 hours.. haha.. HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY MS YEE! And to all of my other tutors lar of coz.. hehe..

Yeap.. really thank God that I've got great tutors such as Ms Tay.. who came along and really boosted my confidence in Chem.. Mr Lim.. who nvr ever fails to entertain me (with my endless Maths questions last year hahaha) till 7.30 pm in sch? LOL.. nvr seen such tutors like that before.. esp Ms Tay when she knew that I was conditionally promoted, she actually went the extra mile to ask me to look for her every week.. and now its become a habit hahaha..

Umz.. and to that.. I also want to thank God for restoring my "passion" for Bio and also the confidence level and motivation.. since on Weds I was literally wallowing in depression after the (ARGH!) Bio session.. esp when I realise that I need to revise again (coz I've forgotten everything that was tested in the rev ex!! -_-").. But at least today, while I was gg through Transport in Mammals and memorising it (like for the nth time) again.. I could feel the interest coming back again.. haha..

Oh and also want to thank God for letting me find a channel that I can score in for Maths (I hope *cross fingers*).. STATS!! Hehehe.. I enjoy doing the questions that Mr Tay (tuition teacher) gave.. even though I have alot of blanks here and there lol.. Let's hope that applies to pure maths too =X

Umz.. and while I was mugging wif Ting today in the freezing AMK library.. and having a chat with her. I thank God that I stepped into her life as a listener (and a rant-er =p) to put it across simply.. I can't rem exactly when our close frenship began.. but its just liek all of a sudden we became best of friends and confidantes =) Thank God that I have a friend to turn to in times of need and when there are certain things that I can't tell anyone simply.. ;)

All right.. that's all to start a new day.. Sleeping time!

Praying for the smooth running of the National Christian Teacher's Conference which is gg to be in a few hours time =)